Dear
SHE... I really like your magazines, Strictly Speaking Spanking and
Devoted
to Discipline. They provide for a need I've had since I was a girl, when, ironically,
NOT getting my bare bottom spanked by my best friend's father made me want it more than
anything.
Betsy
and I were best friends and I had a major "I wish he was mine" crush on her dad.
My own dad was a hard working and drinking man who I rarely saw, but Betsy's dad was
always around. He was a great dad who believed in giving kids lots of love, but I knew he
also believed in giving them spankings when they needed it.
It
wasn't a secret that he spanked Betsy or that she loved him for being such a well-rounded
dad, and I guess I resented the fact that he treated me like a surrogate daughter, except
that he didn't think it was right to spank me like he did Betsy.
He
didn't spank me at all until I was 9 and got in trouble with Betsy for setting a doll
house on fire while we playing in her room. He was so mad that time, especially at me for
coming up with the idea and matches, that he yanked me over his lap and swatted my bottom
a dozen times or so before letting me go.
Like
a typical kid, I burst into tears during my quick pants dusting, but I recovered quickly
and forgot about the little bit of sting there was as I watched with awe while Betsy's
father gave her a long, hard bare bottom spanking.
Betsy's
dad had left my shorts and panties up, but he didn't give his daughter the same
consideration. I was fascinated by the sight of Betsy's little round bottom cheeks, and
then when her dad started slapping them and they turned bright red, well, I thought it was
the sexiest thing I'd ever seen in my life.
Betsy
howled and cried like crazy, and she kicked her legs so hard that her shoes, pants, and
panties were on the bedroom floor by the time her dad stopped spanking. I'd never seen
another girl naked until that moment, and I think it was that and the strangely loving
things Betsy's dad said as he spanked and later as he hugged her to him that made me think
I'd just seen the most intimate father-daughter thing in the world.
Betsy's
dad gave me a little hug and told me I was forgiven and to behave from then on when he
released his sniffling daughter, and it was then that I first recall being envious of my
exclusion from the bond Betsy and her dad shared.
Why
hadn't he pulled down my panties and spanked me like his own daughter? Why didn't he love
me that much?
I
realized a few years later that I wasn't Betsy's dad's natural daughter so he was only
following propriety, but I'd been neglected too long by then and felt angry about not
being able to satisfy my desire. I turned into a huge brat after the first spanking and
got spanked by Betsy's dad a number of times, but he never took down my pants so it didn't
matter that he really warmed my bottom long and hard a few times and hugged away my tears
like he did with his daughter.
No,
for me, it had to bare bottom or nothing, and since I never got Betsy's dad to do it when
I wanted it so much, my curiosity and desire drove me to seek satisfaction in the only
ways I could. I fantasized about it all the time and, though Betsy never knew, I sometimes
deliberately enticed her into doing naughty things so I could get spanked and dreamily
watch her dad spank her bare bottom.
My
fascination with spanking never ended, but my chances for anything more than memories and
fantasies did when Betsy and I turned 13 and her dad decided we were too old for such a
childish punishment. I was too young to realize the withdrawal I felt at something so
special being taken away led to frustration and anger, but it did and I became even more
of a brat.
I
was one of the prettier girls in town and had a good amount of boys interested in me, but
none of them realized what I wanted and so they let me have my way, which always ended up
with me telling them to get lost so I could keep looking for a man like Betsy's dad, only
without the nudity hang-up.
Unfortunately,
I never found him. I did find a lover who liked playing spanking games and getting his
hands on my bare bottom, but it wasn't real enough to make me feel like my dream had
finally come true. I also had an older male boss who threatened to spank me a few times,
but when I tried to push and shove him into doing it, he backed down.
My
husband is like my spanking lover. He's a good, fine man and tries to satisfy my needs,
but he refuses to consider punishing me and probably never will. Maybe it's too late for
me to live out my dream of getting my bare bottom spanked by a father figure anyway, but I
refuse to toss away my hope that I'll turn a corner someday and fall over my dream man's
knee.
I'll
never be 9 or 13 again, but my memories of Betsy's bare bottom bouncing and blushing over
her dad's knee are still clear and exciting, and so are the fantasies those intimate
father-daughter ceremonies first inspired so long ago.
I
hope you'll use this letter and that it will cause other women like me or Betsy to write
in. Good old-fashioned, father-daughter spankings are my favorites, and vicariously living
out my fantasies is still better than nothing.
Yours
Sincerely, Jane R., SC
